This is the question I get asked most often when I speak of O’s perpetual illness.
And my answer is…never.
The last two months have been really effin’ hard. She’s had three episodes of fever. The first one showed no symptoms and was diagnosed as a “virus” (which seems bizarre to me considering nothing came of it), the second came with a cold and cough, and this past weekend was another symptom-free one, which was also diagnosed as viral, but potentially strep (we need to get her a swab tomorrow because Med Visit couldn’t do it).
It would appear my kid is really prone to fevers. And we’re not talking low grade. This morning she hit an all time high of 40.8/105, and I swear to g-d I was bracing myself for our first febrile seizure. Terrifying. She’s become so used to them, that they don’t even phase her anymore. Aside from not eating much, she plays happily, drinks water by the gallon, and sleeps through the night no problem. This is perhaps the most heartbreaking part of it. How my child is fully functional with crazy high fevers is completely beyond me.
This all being said, I’m not giving up on daycare. We’ve almost hit the year mark, and there’s light at the end of the tunnel. It’s still the best decision I’ve ever made. She has 9 playmates that she’s essentially grown up with, and she’s social, extremely verbal, smart, patient, and kind because of where she goes every day. She does art, has music class daily, plays outside twice a day, and gets stimulation that neither me nor a nanny could give her. Yes, the sickness is emotionally and physically taxing on all of us, but it’s worth the sacrifice. Plus, she’ll probably have the best immune system of all her peers in kindergarten.
In the meantime, I’ve decided to be a little more proactive with her immune system. Today I went out and re-stocked the probiotics I’ve neglected to give her over the last few months, and I bought a toddler multivitamin. Our pediatrician claims these are no more than glorified candy, but I feel better knowing she has some supplements to her diet.
Parenting isn’t always puppies, rainbows and sunshine. But experiencing the challenges and lows really only makes the highs that much more special.